A tearful Goodbye

Gillee
AKA: Swiss Miss
My 1st owned,
and my greatest Champion!
I love you and I will miss you dearly.

I had to get up very early this morning to meet a man that I knew nothing about. This wonderful kind stranger agreed to help me take my old sweet girl to the vets for one last time. I am always so amazed at the kindness of strangers. When you are really down and need the help ... there will always be that kind stranger who is willing to help you when needed.
Thank you kind stranger!!!
I had called Doc last week and told him I think its time to make some hard decisions regarding my sweet Gillee. I told D0c that she needs to come see you, one last time. She is loosing weight faster than I can keep it on her. Doc agreed with me and said that was a good decision on my part. He was concerned with her having a stroke or me finding her out in the pasture in worse shape. I told Doc that I could not do this at the oleo ranch, it was just too hard. I also told him I didn't have means to bring her in to the clinic. I inquired if he could come and get her. He told me he thought he could find someone that was willing to help.
Over the course of this last week I have made a new friend.. Pat has been so kind and giving to me. She was willing to help me anyway she could regarding my old girl. We chatted 4 or 5 times and she told me that she had a hand she would send to help me. The hand showed up right on time and was very sweet polite and very kind and gentle with me and my old girl. Gillee loaded up without incident and the total stranger.. and I tell you I still do not know the mans name... he drove my little girl down the road like she was fine porcelain... he drove with caution and care. I am so thankful to these total strangers for helping me in this very difficult time .. I don't know if I could have done it without them.
I received their gentle encouragement and unwavering support.
I know I did the right thing.. but it is very hard after you have been loving and caring for a creature for over 21 years to have to come to this final decision. Gillee came to live with me when she was six, and we have had wonderful loving times together. I spent countless hours with my girl. She taught me so many great things in life... Mostly she taught me unwavering love and kindness. She was always gentle, sweet and loved me unconditionally. She always looked forward to me coming out to the pasture to see her. Whether we were going to a horse show or riding down the road.. or just playing tag in the lot...she was happy to see me.
I tell you my sweet friends I don't really know what is breaking my heart the most right now.. having to say good by to my sweet Gillee girl or her baby boy standing out at the pasture gate pawing at it and squealing. Wanting her to come to him.
I asked Nadine yesterday on the phone.. when did she think the sad and bad things were going to stop haunting me! Nadine agree it was time that some good should come into my life and soon. So ladies keep my sweet Gillee Girl in your thoughts and prayers, and don't forget to throw in a few good thoughts for wonderful things to happen in my life too! I could surly use some good times again!
Hugs
M

Update:
Gillee's Baby Boy 6 hours later was still having a very hard go of his mom being gone. He is still squealing and striking out at the gate and rearing and tearing it up out in the pasture. The last time he got upset like that we had to call the vet out and give him 37 stitches across his forehead and face. I am so worried about him. I finally called the vet and we decided for the best interest of the horse.... we have sedated him. He is now out in the pasture looking like a drunk little ole man. All cross eyed and woozy. He is only squealing once in a while now. I am hoping this drunk will stay on for a while..... so he will have a tad bit of time in getting accustom to his mom being gone.. Poor Poor little guy.